Woscostametaxa

Thursday, November 24, 2005

Oohhh - and she's buyin a stairway to heaven.

Its been awhile since my last bloggin, but like good wine, it has to get some time for full flavour.

I think my biggest fear is to get rejected, in any kind of love can be.
Why can't i really show feelings? This seems so easy - and i think it actually is - but i simply can't show certain feelings to certain persons.

Argl.
Hate it
i need you now somehow and i need you now somehow...
open fire on my knees designed on my knees for you, open fire on
my knees desires what i need from you
The fear of rejection won't go out of my head, i think i cannot take the initiative.
Sucks. Simply said i don't wanna get hurt.
But that's what life's about - risk, success, failure, ups and downs.
Probably my feelings are only on my side - but that would be the interesting thing 'bout it.
I hurt myself today
to see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
the only thing that's real
the needle tears a hole
the old familiar sting
try to kill it all away
but I remember everything

Most about that u guess...

Feelings can suck hard. Shit
No I don't wanna fall in love
this world is always gonna brake your heart
No I don't wanna fall in love
this world is always gonna brake your heart
..with you

What a wicked game to play
To make me feel this way
What a wicked thing to do
To let me dream of you
What a wicked thing to say
You never felt this way
What a wicked thing you do
To make me dream of you

Well had some good rauschs the last few weeks. good talks - good scrubs-sessions, bandgaudi hoch drei... Funny things to come, a strange wind-band concert (how this is gonna end...)

well at least greetings from a klömpö or something like that

(why do i always think its 8 pm today?)

My mama said
That your life is a gift
And my mama said
There�s much weight you will lift
And my mama said
Leave those bad boys alone
And my mama said
Be home before the dawn
And my mama said
You can be rich or poor
But my mama said
You can be big or small

But I�m always on the run
on the run...
on the run...
run...
whatever